Puppies, poo and perfume

Zoe, just as Julia would have her.  Draped in a cute hankerchief, toddler bed blanket cuddling her little stuff animal.  Puppies are so much fun.  Really they are.  I love this pup, I promise you that I must love her.

I didn't have the best day today.  It was one of those days where you call your husband and say, "I need you, today."  Ande came home about 3 to help me finish out the afternoon and evening.  We hung here for a couple of hours and then decided we were going to head to Lowe's, maybe grab a cup of coffee and hang at the book store.  So we head out about 5:30 run to Lowe's, go across town the the book store, run by Subway to bring home subs we get home about 8.

We came home to this...

Yeah, remember the vomit story? This is so much more than that!!!  Zoe didn't like hanging in the bathroom while we were gone.  Not only did she poo, she proceeded to paw paint with it all over the bathroom.  Needless to say, I will have to go to Walmart against my better judgement on Christmas Eve to buy new toothbrushes.  

It took us close to an hour to clean it up.  I stood at the sink washing poo off of a ton of stuff.  My favorite mascara, my hair products.  I told Ande it was horrible to go in and see the stuff covered.  I mean, yeah, you can see the Redken products that I use for my hair, but I make it last FOREVER.  I take such good care of it because I know it may not come again soon.  There was just such a blatant disregard for what I treasure.  I cleaned some of the stuff, some of it was empty and I just threw away, and that rug??  Yeah, it could have been washed...but it's heading to the landfill.  

God keeps giving me these correlations... He washes me again and again.  He has cleaned up behind me so many times.  He has tried to protect me and in my nearsightedness I just made a huge mess thinking that there was no way out.  Some things he restores, some things he throws away, and some things he reminds me that I just don't need anymore.  Today I just long to lay my head on his lap, to pant in exhaustion and to allow him to love me in only the way that he can.  Sometimes, when you think you just can't do anything else... that you can't take one more step God will show you another pile of poo that needs your attention... because you can spray all of the perfume that you want to, poo stinks until you get rid of it.  There is no covering it up.

Hebrews 10:22-23 let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

God, thank you for your faithfulness.  For Jesus, your ultimate clean up committee.  For the Holy Spirit... oh Lord, I long for you.  In Jesus Name.